Another year has flown right on by with the gusts of
autumn having dissipated living most in the region where I reside the whirling
winds and snow of winter’s scape. I have been reflecting this past week on year
2012 and the lessons I have learned from it. The ups and downs which had molded
and shaped me into the woman I am today.
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I have seen gains in 2012 but they were of the learning currency
in my walk. Not the sort of flowing green currency I’m afraid, but I am breathing.
Towards the years end I had awaken to a realization of my own sense of vulnerability and wonder. I had begun to question a lot including those within my inner-circle and my friendships. I even began to question and ask myself if dating anyone again would be worth it, and would it be better to just remain single and be married to my work.
Towards the years end I had awaken to a realization of my own sense of vulnerability and wonder. I had begun to question a lot including those within my inner-circle and my friendships. I even began to question and ask myself if dating anyone again would be worth it, and would it be better to just remain single and be married to my work.
I know there is room for much improvement in my life a
lot, and I have swallowed my pride enough to understand that I need to improve in
certain areas to become a better person, a better woman and a good contributor to both my church
community and society in general. And I have to take brash and bold steps in
order to get there understanding and knowing all to well that nothing is never as easy nor do I
expect it to be handed to me on a golden platter.
These last four months I had lost both my lover who was
my best male friend along with a close female friend who also had betrayed me with
him. Along with that issue I am also in the clutches of reorganizing my
business and organization. There is never two ways about it when it comes to
being betrayed and various friends show their true respective colors when you
are down and out all the while reorganizing a business.
During these last few days it has brought me down to my
knees figuratively speaking reflecting on my life and year 2012.
1.) Had I done all that I set sail out to do since January 1, 2012?
2.) Are there any areas I need to tend and pay better attention?
3.) Where were my growth and development focused on?
4.) Were there issues and situations I needed to turn my back on and walk away for the better?
1.) Had I done all that I set sail out to do since January 1, 2012?
2.) Are there any areas I need to tend and pay better attention?
3.) Where were my growth and development focused on?
4.) Were there issues and situations I needed to turn my back on and walk away for the better?
Here are my some of my goals/plans for year 2013 which are
to:
1.) Move south of the M-59 line marker where there is more traffic
within the circles and doings of my own life.
2.) Work becomes and
remains a mainstay with a ruthless aggressive mindset. I want to ensure
that work is enthroned as a ruling principle in my life. I want to live and
breathe success at every turn albeit spiritually, financially and physically. The end
goal is to become both self-reliant and self-sufficient. My emotional, social
and mental mindset along with development shall continue its process.
3.) I want to ensure that my book is ready for publication autumn of
2013.
4.) To rid myself of the stinkin’ thinking that I have carried for
the last four months.
5.) In a healthy way I NOW have to DROP 75 pounds since I gained a
few these last four months due to the personal crisis I had to deal with. The
weight has been hampering my life with concern, not productivity wise or the
potential for further productivity.
6.) Live life in such a way and manner that it is to be who I am and
not the image of others. To be able to afford material goods that is right in
price frugally and will not break the bank. Purchase a nice car when it
warrants it, not beforehand just for appearance nor image sake.
7.) To further learn, grow and develop by attending workshops,
training classes and seminars to sharpen the saw.
8.) Concentrate on my business endeavors and passive income streams.
9.) Eliminate or dampen my ego issues by being more humble and
finding my inner spiritual voice.
10.) Engage with my inner voice and my
convictions.
11.) Continue to develop my public
speaking skills and abilities while enhancing my speaking abilities further by committing
myself to my Toastmasters club and its programs.
Life for me continues as I am sure it does for you to
move forward, to be better and march onward for a better year ahead. One must push their shoulder to the wheel sort of speak as I have felt for many years, but life and its highways in and of itself is always under construction and at sundry times under Reconstruction.
Am I any exception I ask of myself?
I carry my own cross which the Lord of my life had placed upon me under my own free will and choosing. But I know as I walk forward that I will need to seek Him more.
Am I any exception I ask of myself?
I carry my own cross which the Lord of my life had placed upon me under my own free will and choosing. But I know as I walk forward that I will need to seek Him more.
Thank you for reading and fond wishes for a blessed and prosperous
2013!
Be well my fellow readers and friends,
Jennifer Elisabeth (JET)
