And now... some of the most recognizable figures gone-but-not-forgotten-music-stars in entertainment and business superstars-we-lost-lost along the way in 2011. ~JET
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Gone But Not Forgotten 2011 | Billboard.com
The best-pictures-of-2011. Photographers come and go, but it takes a very talented and gifted photographer to bring out the details in best & worst dressed in telling the story in pictures. Do you have what it takes? ~JET
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Getting beyond the Pain of 2011
December 29, 2011:
Had awaken this morning to a sense of winter wonderment
without the heavy snow that perhaps by this time now we should have had in this
area of Rochester- Detroit which all in all had covered me with warmth as I
laid under the covers. Yes the very warmth of three comforters.
This morning however just like last night could
still feel the snap of coldness upon arising from my bed as I begin to look
back at 2011 and the events of my life and its circumstances in which I can honestly
say that I am very glad 2011 is going away. There have been so much pain within
me, but all in all I have had a sense of growth and development.
Just nearly three weeks ago I could have “checked
out” and I did not do so thanks to some pretty worthwhile friends and members
of my church that came rallying with love and prayers. I had spent the better part
of these last four weeks surrounded by both friends and love.
Been pondering and reflecting over my life in
which areas of my life I have earnestly paid attention to and which areas have
I aborted that held me down. I am realizing that year “2012” will have to be
such a year that shall be so relentless in grabbing it by the horns and create
success and development is such a way that it will allow me to reach some worthwhile
goals and objectives for the year.
I have been reflecting back at the last twenty
years all the way back to that first date with Mary Jeanne in January 1990 and
the impact she had in my life than. No matter what I had tried these last four
weeks has been something where flashbacks of my relationship and marriage to
Mary Jeanne had continued to pop into my mind warranted or not. I have thought
about the infamy of a divorce that really did not have to occur. In the means
of how the marriage came to an abrupt ending and how it brought the breaks on
in the heavy sighs of a divorce settlement was draining emotionally enough for
both her and I.
The death of a marriage as I came to understand
is not always a fresh beginning unless it was a very abusive and unsatisfying
marriage. Mine and Mary Jeanne’s were far from abusive and unsatisfying. For the
marriage had in itself growth periods with its ups and downs. A marriage ought to have intimacy; it ought to
be a relationship of love and honor but most importantly like any arrangement
there is a need to treat a marriage like a business of sorts such as life
itself pending the interpretation of any person who continues to run its course
in a business mindset with everyday details and its accomplishments.
Neither MJ nor I regretted at the time as we looked
back during that year of 2008 and sailed onto the counsel chambers of a judge
in Oakland County Birmingham , Michigan
It was fine for her as it was for me but for me
it was nerve-wrecking to be alone again after 18 years of marriage. I have
always believed in a forever marriage but choices I have made kind of put a
road block in that for this life’s sojourn between her and me. I need to
respect her free agency, her wishes with regards to separating. But I still lay
hold on the premise that her mother and family had a lot to do with our
break-up.
However, contrary to the whims, pandering and
pleadings of others we remained pretty close over the last three years of her
life. We were tight and we always understood what we knew as “the big picture.”
It always bothered the naysayer especially
various members whom are former friends and of my former church of membership who
did not agree nor liked my life choices to save my own life. They would prefer
to see me in the grave than for myself to be whom and what I am to save my life
after five attempts of checking out. Somehow and in some way I knew I had to
embrace and make peace with what I refer to both a blessing and a curse. These
former associates of mine continue to be so ignorant in their respective skin that
for the most part these various Mormons are literally full of themselves. I do
not disdain nor dislike the Mormon faith for it has been part of my spiritual
make-up for some thirty years, and still agree with many of its tenets and
principles, but what does rip at me is their respective ignorance, double-standards
and discrimination with regards to the embodiment of Christ-like love and
compassion.
My plans for early year 2012 are to:
1.)
Move south of the M-59 marker where there is more traffic within
the circles and doings of my life.
2.)
Work shall be a mainstay and dealt more with a ruthless aggression
mindset. I want to ensure that work is a ruling principle in my life. I want to
live and breathe success at every turn spiritually, financially and physically.
The emotional, social and mental mindset and development shall continue to
enhance and develop.
3.)
I want to ensure that my book is ready for publication comes fall
of 2012.
4.)
To rid myself of the stinkin’ thinking that I have carried for
sometime.
5.)
In a healthy way drop my weight down 70 pounds by not risking or hampering
my life.
6.)
Live life in such a way and manner that it is to be who I am and
not to the image of others. To be able to afford material goods that is right
in price, but will not break the bank. To be able to purchase a nice car when
it warrants it not beforehand just for appearance sake.
7.)
To further learn and grow by attending workshops, training classes
and seminars to sharpen the saw.
8.)
Concentrate on my business endeavors and focus on passive income
streams.
9.)
Eliminate or dampen my ego issues by being more humble and finding
my inner spiritual voice.
These are starters to begin with and I am
certain there shall be room for realignment here and there.
There was so much that Mary Jeanne and I wanted
to accomplish not just together but separately, too. I would like for her
legacy and memory to live on and I have started measures to do such. Some of
which will become more relevant as time moves on. I am healing and it’s getting
better. The pain is subsiding but I know I have got to give it time. I need not
to bottle it inside for it would hurt me.
Life continues and life moves on. One must push
their shoulder to the wheel sort of speak. And I am not any exception. I carry
my own cross that the Lord of my life had placed upon me, but I know as I walk
forward that I will need to seek Him more.
Thank you for reading and have a blessed and
prosperous 2012 ahead!
Be well,
Jennifer Elisabeth (JET)
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